The life of an Emotional Eater....

The life of an emotional eater....

I am an emotional eater. It is hard for me to say it out loud, but it is true. I am addicted to food when I am stress, sad, happy or angry. It has more control over me than I’d ever like to admit. But I am addicted to it. I’m addicted to the salt and the sugar and all things food. I crave food almost all the time. I’ve been battling with this emotional eating  since I was about 22, and I really need to beat it the crap out of it. I need to enjoy food and savor it and nourish my body and pleasure myself with delightful treats and fabulous recipes. But there is a difference between enjoyment and sustenance and craving food every single minute of every day even more when I am stressed out. Lately life has not been easy for me or my family, I find old habits wanting to make sight in my every day life yet again, I remember being a teenager and when I was stressed I would not eat at all to the point of anorexia. I have always had this love / hate relationship with food and always trying to learn balance. As much as I am trying to succeed now in losing the rest of my weight, I feel I have hit a standstill, I know I will continue working on it every day but there are days I feel no one understands. I have had comments lately with people saying "well you aren't as big as you used to be" but " you have to keep moving". I get comments that people feel  I am making excuses for not working out, I say if you had a needy toddler running around, a husband who works almost every single day, in school for your master's degree and trying to maintain a house - not to mention fit in sleep. I really am not making excuses, I would much rather be in the gym like I did before but its not possible at this point in my life. All I can do is work every day and thank god for what he has already blessed me with and just keep swimming. 

Ashley M.

Pregnancy Weight 204 to Current Weight 177