Day 344: I can't believe I've made it this far without giving up, the drive for changing myself is so intense and it keeps growing as the time rolls on. I may not have lost 76 pounds in total but having lost almost 50 pounds in one year is a huge accomplishment for me. I have had injuries, tears, tons of sweat, frustration and successes. Everyone tells me I should be so proud of myself & not to be so hard on myself about losing the last few pounds I have to go. But I see it as I've come so far and why give up now, this has truely been a lifestyle change and I feel I've adjusted pretty well but I still have some work to do in order to perfect the things I've learned. My outlook within my self has changed but I still have those negative thoughts and my "fat girl" moments but my good days are out weighing the bad days! For that I am thankful for all those who have offered to help me along my journey. I've also learned to not listen to those people who think they can belittle my ambitions because I know I am much smarter, faster and more humble than they will ever dream to be. I let their words now roll off my back for the most part and try not to let them catch me off guard any longer. I am learning to channel my stress levels by using working out, yoga and meditation/prayer to assist me during my most stressful moments because life is simply too short. I'm learning to balance holding a full time career, attending a University full time and balancing my nutrition & workouts...somedays this isn't so simple and time management is very important. I've learned to let my inner BEAST come out and it helps me push through hard workouts and hard times. (Thank you Jon- For always encouraging that the BEAST always comes out!- BEAST MODE SON!!- You are the BEST!)
For those of you who feel you cannot do this or it's too hard, I used to feel the same way but just know when you are ready to make a change in your life it will be so worth it. Not just for being skinny but for overall health and wellness. Your mental health also changes and you start seeing your self changing and hearing all the positive things will make you feel happier. Just know when you are ready to have a good support system and know that I will support you heck, i'd probably tell you lets workout together! LOL.
Thanks again for reading and following my blog!
Ashley M.
