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Well I am quite frustrated lately that my body just doesn't seem to want to budge out of the 160's , its like I want to shake my self and ask my body...."Why won't you at least reach 159?" I am keeping up with my diet and workout regmin, so I am quite confuzzled but this doesn't mean throw in the towel and walk away from all this hard work. I think I just need to continue what I am doing and maybe instead of trying 100% at the gym, push myself to 115%. I figure somethings got to give here right?!?
I was told the other day that life is too short and I shouldn't deprive my self from the foods I like to eat...My response was I am not depriving myself I am just having them in smaller increments. Another person told me that BEING FAT was much easier than losing weight. I can honestly say I don't see it that way. I feel that being overweight isn't easier and that its actually much harder. You have to endure the "fat girl" comments, the stares when you wear bathing suits, your inner voice saying how bad you look in the mirror, not to mention the medical bills that pile up. I was constantly feeling sick to my stomach from the foods and crap I was putting into my body. For someone like me having IBS and being 76 pounds over weight wasn't good for my overall health and wellness. I spent much money on seeing gastro doctors, internist and other doctors. So you tell me which is easier being healthy or being overweight?
I chose HEALTHY...its not so much skinny anymore but its about overall health and wellness. Even though I am still not 100% happy with my body I know that my body is much healther than it was about a year ago. I will always have those judgemental people who tell me I am fat even after losing 48 pounds and I can now proudly say " TO HELL WITH THEM" and it just pushes me more to get to my goal so that when I wear a new bikini or a skimpy red dress it will just shame them for saying those nasty things about me. So I will continue to work thru these frustrations and keep on trucking because if I can lose 48 pounds I can lose these last 30 even if it takes me six more months.
Thanks for reading!
Ashley M.
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